Oh ya! I said it, didn't I? That's the most obvious cliched comment i could have made about life and here I have made it.
The Reason behind it has been a culmination of one thought. Yes, one thought of the many that germinate in my fertile mind and die untimely death because of my my job's extreme nerve racking senseless mindless .. I lost track of what I wanted to say.
Anyway, thing is off late in the midst of the sucky job, no Bf scenario was pondering and remembering all those nice fellows that cam and went, some fell away in life's journey. We all go through life meeting a variety of people, I for one have been very lucky to have met some of the most interesting people in my life. The span of time I refer to is 2 years probably 18 to 20 years. Well that time seems so long gone. So, in the ripe old age of 25 I decide to make a PL statement, [Profit/Loss], seemed to me I have not been very nice to tonnes of people, who were very good to me. We are sometimes blinded by some images that drive us, taking control of our thoughts and our capacity to feel for others. In these moments we destroy some of the best relations we may have found. It is like starting to finally get the hang of swimming or some such thing and then simply giving into the panic and come out of it screaming.That is a terrible metaphor.
However, the idea is, when one does realise with a hindsight, that's Foresight with no where to go, that one's pretty messed up and has actually let go of so many good people who could have been the mythical creature, THE ONE, one sinks into a deep depression. Then comes the bolt from the blue, in walks an old flame, the could have been, and funnily enough says all the right things about what a terrible mistake they have made in not having taken things seriously, the whole really good script from your average daily soap opera. And then in the middle of the confession you realise that all the ass wants is to find a silly reason to cheat on his wife and his 2 yr old kid, and the reason apparently is you. How self satisfying this makes one feel doesn't it?
From the person who wanted to be every body's friend suddenly your role seems to be veering off the cliff into the abyss.
Then of course you realise this was some one's trick to show you a sign and prove it to you that what ever happened in your life was for the best, the choices you made have had the right reasons, may not have been visible then, but most certainly they have saved you from something worse.
I can't imagine what a life it would be had I ended up with this particular scumbag, one is pulled towards defending oneself with the Ostrich like thought that being with me would have prevented the sad fall the poor fellow's had, but who am I kidding, one learns in life that if a person is capable of doing something indecent, immoral once, that person is quite capable of doing it twice, and mind you he may vouch for his changed self, however, the Aesop's fable moral rings out loud and clear. "Habits [loosely translated from "Shabhab"] never change even if your dead."
But like always I learn my lesson without too much damage to myself, Steer clear of self - pity and definitely of old flames coz, old they might be but they sure have the capacity to singe you.
And you did good to have dumped them when you did, vice versa of course.
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