I am all out of Faith

Suddenly the rules have changed.
The perfect blue sky is grey,
Am I so late?
I'm already gone too fa to bring back
Edged out of my life-
Standing on the side
Plunging deeply into the boiling red.

The words aren't more meaningful
Across the glipmses of your face.
All i read is no more pain.
Yet the rain scalded only the skin,
No, it could not wash away tears.
Clouds of grey fogs my sight.

Where have all the lights gone?
Life's darker than usual-
When have they left the Black?
Life's forgotten other colors-
What have i done to deserve this?
Life's gotten Unfair-

The rules of the game have changed,
Rules of the older game-
Which I played and won,
Why has all that changed?
So, many times did I cheat life in my dreams-
Now love has found the loaded die
And each hand it wins
I lose; and wait my turn.
When is my Turn?

I'm all out of FAITH.

4:56 PM 16-09-2008

There are the worst kind of associations
and affinities, and then there are the
really worse kinds.
Ok, I think I have started off on the wrong
foot.
And no one has a clue about what I am
speaking.
I started speaking to this man, and then
there was a connection, let's call the
connection a sort of affinity.
We found taht we had an affinity towards
passion, and so we talked and talked and
continued exploring the myths and realities
of the same. Yet, there were times we both
failed to underastand where we were getting
swept into, it wasn't a very nice place.
We wanted to spend time together and that
wasn't possible because of the distance,
but our passion grew and pulled us towards
each other. Everday the conversations moved
us from the world we inhabited into a world
that was somewhere between this reality and
the reality we sought.
And then the unthinkable happened. By soem
trick of fate or some lacunae in physics,
the reality and unreality met, I led a Dual
life, one where I live and write this
journal and the other where I am truly
happy, in my complex web of images,
feelings and emotions.
I am going to take you on that journey.